An ill Man in Denial by ScarlettDawn94, literature
Literature
An ill Man in Denial
We were fighting. The source of what caused the argument long forgotten. Yet that's just what sisters do. It wasn't detrimental to the point of physical arguments just verbal attacking.
Then he came in. His anger always unpredictably irrational and violent. He went for the weaker one, the smallest and more helpless one. My baby sister.
He started bellowing words in French, pandemonium broke out drastically. He began to hit her over the head continuously, his sanity gone completely astray.
For a second I froze in complete baffle. Then I acted. I pushed him away from her and grabbed her.
Like a mother bird protecting her chicks from the chi
Lucky to Have a Friend like You by ScarlettDawn94, literature
Literature
Lucky to Have a Friend like You
I stood alone in the rain, the crystal drops burning out my hope
Each night I'd pray, my eyes closed yet my mind alert
I was never sure whom I was praying to
I just wanted my wish to come true
I prayed for a guardian angel
An angel that could show me the path to enlightment
A guardian that would protect me from my own demons
An angel of perception, compassion and understanding
Then she came along
She was perfect
She came not in the form of an angel as I'd hoped
But she was better. She came as a friend.
Her recovery much more advance
She taught me to see the glass half full
It was an instant connection I never knew existed
Both in lan
Frightened of what I've become
Lost in the ocean I'm drowning in
Too far to help those whom I love
Sometimes the truth is better unsaid
Especially for those whom would be tormented by the truth
Those who are incapable of helping themselves
I was always the glue that held them together
Always the strong one for when they fell
And now that I have fallen, it has caused a domino effect
I'm worried to pick up the phone
I'm scared to listen to them speak
I don't want to decipher the truth from their lies
We're a broken family
Always have been
But now that I hav
The emptiness became the fullness
The hunger became the satisfaction
The withering became the growing
The hatred became the love
I lost myself within my illness
I caved to the lies of my mirrors
I indulged in my blindness
I forgot who I was
I let society take over my identity
I was no longer one in six billion
I was one of six billion
My self preservation lost
You tease the fat girl
Who grows up crying when she eats
Filled with regret she throws up after each meal
You tease the girl who cries
Whose story you don't know
So she turns to the blades to contain her tears
You tease the ugly girl
Who hates herself enough as it is
With each reflection it kills her to the point of suicide
You tease the girl with glasses
Who cannot see without them
Yet with them on, she can see bought but the ugly of the world
You tease the nerd
With her head always in her books
She blocks you out and when you'll be in medi
They had all left her
They had actually all left her
She knew not what to do now
She had the urges again
She actually had the urges again
She wanted to feel the pain of the self inflicted lacerations
She laid in her bed
She actually laid in her bed
She were unable to move, just stare at the ceiling
She cried
Yes she cried
For hours she laid soaked in her own tears
Then she awoke
She actually awoke
They said they would come back, she knew they would
She was not alone.
She simply felt alone
Yet she awoke to herself
She kne
I Watched the Candle by ScarlettDawn94, literature
Literature
I Watched the Candle
I watch the candle being made.
A single candle made by the touch of humans.
Just as I was made.
I watched the candle being lit.
It's journey just beginning in the sudden heat of life.
Just as I woke up as baby, suddenly thrown into this world.
I watched the candle's wax weep.
The flame of life becoming too much and from the inside it seeped.
Just as my life traumas had ramifications on my inner self and I weeped.
I watched the candle deteriorate placidly.
For the flame was engulfing it, becoming overwhelming.
Just as my past were for me, slowly and unnoticeably I was withering away.
I watc
The tip of the blade touches my skin
My body screams for me to stop
But with my heart aching so
My mind tells me to carry on
I push the blade hard against my delicate clean skin
The tears fall softly like the pitter patter of rain droplets
Yet as I pull the stainless steel up my arm
My emotions are gone, I just feel numb
I love watching my skin split apart
Almost like it's replicating the gap between confinement and freedom
I love watching the scarlet river flow
It brings me more peace than when the crystal river flows
Suddenly I find myself bleeding too much
The l
It's sad how my life has been ruined
My mind only tunes in with my suicidal ideation
The only time I smile a true smile
Is when I think of death and the freedom it possesses
Death is all around us, lurking around each corner
Yet I live still, trying to catch death at no avail
Each breath I breathe, is oxygen wasted
Each day I live, is a day wasted
No matter where I look, I'm caught up in the mind set
I see a knife and wonder how sharp it is
I see pills and wonder how many it'll take to end me
I see danger but it always avoids me
I see guns, but the bullets aim away from me
They say prozac wi
I'm awake I can't sleep
All I can hear
Is the seconds ticking ticking ticking
All I can hear
Is the girls in my dorms breathing in their sleep
I stare at the roof
Not much to see for it is dark tonight
But so much to think of
As I wait to fall asleep
Hours go by and I lay here still
Restless and tired but unable to sleep
Ironically I count the seconds to make time pass
Yet it doesn't even slow down my mind
I close my eyes
Inhaling and exhaling as I've been taught
I feel dizzy and my stomachs hungry
But still I lay in bed just waiting to fall asleep
Finally my eyes close but without warning
Alarm bells are ringing
It's time for me to wa
she's gone, she's gone. by RoseScarlet, literature
Literature
she's gone, she's gone.
don't tell a broken girl with
grief pouring into the juts of her cheekbones,
hunger suffocating into the curves of her ribs,
that her eyes are made
of moonlight
and her hair was weaved from
sunshine when you are
light years away and millennia too late
Oh how fragile you are
Just a slight wind and you snap in half
I pluck all your velet from your face
But you don't love me no matter how hard I try
They fall down
One pebble
Two
To be carried off into some unknown land
So I am stuck here with stick in hand
Of the love that could never be forged
But it is ok there are many more like you
With the same red complexion
Even better than you
I'll rip there crismon one by one and maybe one day
As more pebbles fall
One-hundred and two
One-hundred and three
The right one will bestowed itself to me
So that one day
I can call it my rose
darling look back, reminisce
upon life, that life that you missed
while consumed by consumption,
too weary to function
replay and rewind; stop, repeat & you'll find
you're out of your mind
and it's all that matters
and your life is in tatters
replay and rewind; that's it, stop the tape
please my darling, don't make this mistake
I hear the words
Ringing in my drums
The pounding roar
The knife gets closer
Please no more
Barking swallows reason
Love destroys life
The cut is clean
My river floods
The dam Shattered
Broken by voice
The water
Raging with betrayal
Let out
Flowing towards her
She sees my shock
And stabs her heel
Twists it back and forth
Over and over
I look her in the eyes
Once they were affectionate
Now they are petrified with hate
Where is love
Is it real
Or just a delusion
And mine
Splattered
Defecated by Slander
Lays frozen
In the air
The ice
Covers up my echoes
Prevents movement
The jesters laugh
Rattling around
Taunting my death
And destroying my prid